WHEN I WAS A PHYSICS FAILURE

JOURNAL 2
WEEK 3 (2 JULY 2013)

WHEN I WAS A PHYSICS FAILURE

Two years ago, when I was still in my secondary school, physics subject was my greatest enemy. I really hate physics as it was very hard and difficult for me to understand its concept. Besides, I felt really scared when I confronted physics papers as I knew that I will never understand and capable of doing each and every of its questions.

I was introduced to the physics subject when I was in form 4. When I attended our first physics class, I was totally lost in the midst of the class. I did not have any ideas of what was my teacher talking about. Before our first physics class ended, my teacher did give us homework to do. As I went home, I opened my book and tried to do it. However, I did not even understand the question. The question was totally different from what the teacher had taught us. After staring at the question for few hours, I still could not get the question. Until at one point, I started to give up doing it. From that day onward, I really hate to do physics homework. Sometimes I even cried as I was doing it because it made me stress to be unable to do it.

Few months later, it was time for me to sit for my first physics test. Few days before the test, I tried to study all the theories and concepts that we were taught before but none of them that I truly understand.  As I got the paper, it was the same respond that I have when I was doing my first physics homework. Likewise previously, I was blurred with the question and have no idea about it. I sat in front of the paper doing nothing for the first 30 minutes. Nevertheless, as time pass by, I forced myself to start to write something on the paper and simply did it. I just write anything that comes across my mind.

After a few weeks, my teacher was giving back our test paper and to my surprise, my mark was exaggeratedly awful. I failed on it and tears started to roll from my eyes. At that point, I felt so down and very upset to myself. Some of my friends gave me motivation and tried to comfort me but I just ignored them because I was too sad.

As i get back home that day, I told my mother everything. Fortunately, she did not scold me and she was also giving me motivation words. From that day onward, I work really hard on my physics. I even bought 3 physics exercise books and came to see my teacher regularly. I sought advice from them as well as their guidance on physics. During the mid year, my chemistry teacher, Puan Eja offered me to join a physics tuition class with her husband for free. She was too kind for me and I did join the tuition class with her husband. Every time when I went to their house, I would bring some food for her and her family as they gave me a free tuition and did not want to receive my money. My life went on in the same way like this until I reached form 5. As the time pass by, my result was getting better and I did not feel scared anymore to confront physics homework.

On 2012, I received my SPM result. I only got B+ for my physics. However, I felt happy as I have improved a lot from my performance in physics since form 4.